"Yes, that makes me feel better. Christ. I could have killed someone if I'd done that. Exploded them like a bloody potato. And minors are learning this?" He shook his head. "No child should have this much responsibility. I don't want to have this responsibility." But he had it.

"What did I do wrong?" He didn't want to do it again. He did not want to do anything of the sort again. But he also couldn't let it go if it could possibly help.