Axel asked her a direct question. And she wanted to keep her hands over her mouth to stop the flood of words. She did. But at the same time, she didn't want to make him angry at her. She fought with herself, words mumbled behind her gloves before she finally dropped her hands.
"I don't want to keep talking because it keeps hurting the both of you when I keep talking but I don't want to not answer because then you'll get upset and then you and Roxas might argue about you getting upset and I never want to be the reason the two of you argue again." the words tumbled out of her mouth as tears ran down her face, and she couldn't stop them. "Ever since you told me how Roxas left I was so afraid and upset that it was because of how you guys argued about you trying to stop me from leaving even if neither of you remembered the argument, because neither of you remembered me. You were best friends before I was created, I don't ever want to break that."
And he had asked about the hood, so the words kept coming. But she looked at Roxas now. "At the end, that last time on the clock tower you couldn't see my face any more, Roxas. You saw Sora. Saïx never saw my face at all. I know someone here" Noa "said he saw my face, but all the bullies kept on about how they couldn't" because she inadvertently exposed a weakness and that's how bullies ARE "and I can't handle it," she said looking to Axel, then back to Roxas, back pressed against the headboard of her bed. "I know Axel can see my face, but always could, but you stopped being able to Roxas and I don't want to see your eyes when you see someone else instead, or worse. Having been in Sora what if Sora is all you see? Or Like Riku you see Kairi? Or just see a blank face or no face at all? What if you can't look at me again after that?" She put her hands over her eyes under her hood again, small frame shaking badly. And she couldn't forget Saïx was right there, hearing all of this. She hurt. All of her hurt. She pushed her hands down further as she felt her mouth opening to say more. To say words she KNEW would hurt Axel. She wanted to run away, but now Saïx was between her and the door and he'd stop her. Either for Axel or to hurt her, either way he'd stop her and Axel would be hurt.
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"I don't want to keep talking because it keeps hurting the both of you when I keep talking but I don't want to not answer because then you'll get upset and then you and Roxas might argue about you getting upset and I never want to be the reason the two of you argue again." the words tumbled out of her mouth as tears ran down her face, and she couldn't stop them. "Ever since you told me how Roxas left I was so afraid and upset that it was because of how you guys argued about you trying to stop me from leaving even if neither of you remembered the argument, because neither of you remembered me. You were best friends before I was created, I don't ever want to break that."
And he had asked about the hood, so the words kept coming. But she looked at Roxas now. "At the end, that last time on the clock tower you couldn't see my face any more, Roxas. You saw Sora. Saïx never saw my face at all. I know someone here" Noa "said he saw my face, but all the bullies kept on about how they couldn't" because she inadvertently exposed a weakness and that's how bullies ARE "and I can't handle it," she said looking to Axel, then back to Roxas, back pressed against the headboard of her bed. "I know Axel can see my face, but always could, but you stopped being able to Roxas and I don't want to see your eyes when you see someone else instead, or worse. Having been in Sora what if Sora is all you see? Or Like Riku you see Kairi? Or just see a blank face or no face at all? What if you can't look at me again after that?" She put her hands over her eyes under her hood again, small frame shaking badly. And she couldn't forget Saïx was right there, hearing all of this. She hurt. All of her hurt. She pushed her hands down further as she felt her mouth opening to say more. To say words she KNEW would hurt Axel. She wanted to run away, but now Saïx was between her and the door and he'd stop her. Either for Axel or to hurt her, either way he'd stop her and Axel would be hurt.